His Gal

2009-08-12T02:24:00.001+08:00

Hahas, as promised :D
Here's your post.. =P

Hms... You ain't a noob, just that you required more time & effort to learn lor. hahas.
Crappy nose @_@ Well well.. at least i manage to somehow or another persuade you to create a blog 0_0
am i supposed to be honoured to be your 1st and only reader for the time being? hahas. well, of course you got xim, if not how do you talk to me ? :x bakabakabaka laogong xP

Repli-ed your questions, bleah . okay luhs time to do something to my nose and return back to wait for him. hahas
Ciaos ~

2009-04-11T08:38:00.002+08:00

TEN ARE YOUS :

` Are ue single?
~ Nopes (:

`Are ue happy anot?
~ Uncertain (:

` Are ue bored?
~ Nopes (:

` Are ue fair?
~ Gotta ask around (:

` Are ue Italian?
~ Nopes (:

` Are ue intelligent?
~ Definitely No (: 傻瓜始终还是傻瓜 (:

`Are ue honest?
~ Gotta ask around (:

` Are ue nice?
~ Gotta ask around (:

`Are ue Irish?
~ Nopes (:

` Are ue Asian?
~ Yea (:

TEN FACTS:

` Full name :
~ Levon Xu (:

` Nickname :
~ Play Salt ; Shasha (:

` Birthplace :
~ Singapore (:

` Hair colour :
~ Brownish Black (:

` Natural hairstyle :
~ Anything Comfortable? (:

` Birthday :
~ 123 (:

` Mood :
~ Ultra-Unstabilized (:

` Favourite colour :
~ Blue ; Black (:

` One place ue would like to visit :
~ Under the sea (:

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE:

` Have ue been in love?
~ Yea (:

`Do ue believe in love at 1st sight?
~ Yea (:

` Do ue currently have a crush?
~ Nopes (:

` Have ue broken anyone's heart?
~ ii supposed ):

` Have ue been hurt emotionally?
~ Yea ):

` Have ue ever like someone butis afraid of telling them?
~ Nopes (:

` Are ue afraid of commitment?
~ Th thing is... who is willing to lemme commit to me? (:

` Who was the last person ue hugged?
~ Grams (:

` Who was the last person ue said ii love ue to?
~ My sheepie (:

TEN THIS OR THAT:

` Love or lust?

~ Love (:

` Hard liquor or beer?

~ Prefabbly none (:

` Cats or dogs?

~ Definitely dogs? (:

` A few BFFs or any regular friends?

~ BFFs (:

` Creamy or crunchy?

~ Crunchy (:

` Pencil or pen?
~ Pencil (:

` Wild night or romantic night ?
~ Romantic night (:

`Money or happiness?
~ Happiness (:

` Night or day?
~ Night (:

` IM or phone?
~ Phone (:

TEN ARE YOUS :

` Been caught sneaking out?
~ Yea ):

` Seen a polar bear?
~ Yea ; Mr Lum (:

`Done something ue regret?
~ Yea ):

`Bungee Jumped?
~ Yea (:

` Eaten food that fell on floor ?
~ Nopes (:

` Finished an entire jaw breaker?
~ Nopes (:

` Been caught naked?
~ Yea ):

` Wanted a ex bf or gf back?
~ Nopes ; happiness can't be forced (:

` Cried because ue lose a pet?
~ Yea .. momo ):

` Wanted to disappear?
~ Yea.. right here right now..

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER:

` Smile or eyes?
~ Smile (:

` Light or dark hair?
~ No preference (:

` Hugs or kisses ?
~ No preference (:

` Shorter or taller?
~ No preference (:

` Intelligence or attraction?
~ No preference (:

` Topman or zara?
~ No preference (:

` Funny or serious ?
~ both? (:

` Older or younger?
~ No preference (:

` Outgoing or quiet?
~ No preference (:

` Sweet or bad?
~ No preference (:

TEN HAVE YOU:

` Ever performed in front of a large crowd?
~ Yea (:

` Ever talk on a phone longer than an hour?
~ Yea (:

` Ever tried walking on your hands?
~ Yea (:

` Ever been to a rock concert?
~ Yea (:

` Ever been on cheer leading team?
~ Yea (:

` Ever been on a dance team?
~ Yea (:

` Ever been on a sports team?
~ Yea (:

` Ever been in a drama play/ production?
~ Nopes (:

` Ever owned a BMW,Mercedes Benz,Esclade,Hummer or Bentley?
~ Yea; In my lalaland (:

` Ever been in a rape video?
~ NO!

TEN LASTS:

` Last phone call ue made?
~ Chicky (:

` Last person ue hugged?
~ Chicky (:

` Last person ue hanged out with?
~ JOW (:

`Last time ue worked?
~ Last month (:

` Last person ue talked to?
~ Chicky (:

` Last person ue IM-ed to?
~ Nich glg (:

` Last person ue texted?
~ Chicky (:

` Last person[s] ue went to movies with?
~ JOW (:

` Last website ue visited?
~ Facebook (:

Whoever wanna do then do norhs :D

2009-03-26T09:58:00.006+08:00

Loads & loads of things have been occuring in my life, leaving me breathless & speechless... Basically, im just fading away, dawning to remember who ii really am...

Thus i've came up with a decision , which has already started yesterday...

After Cautious Considerations, Ii Came Out With This Probable Ideal Conclusion..

Which Is To Selude Myself For Sometimes..

In Other Words,Staying Outta Contact...

Well,People Who Contacted Me Yesterday, Would Have Known This.

Yea..This Is The Only Way Ii Supposed?

Before Ii Forget Who Ii Really Am.... Yea...

So Tatas Peeps. How Long Would It Be.... Ii Wonder...

~~Haven't Ii Done Enough Hurt To The Peeps Who Cared For Me?~~

~~Who Am I.....?~~

~~Im Just Pathetic...~~

2009-03-02T20:42:00.002+08:00

This song was recommended by my lover nuer.hahas.. come back to me by se7en

So hard not to think about it
It's every step I take
And heaven knows I'm trying
But it gets awfully hard
When your heart is this broken

Visions of your lovely face
As I awake, I have this feeling
That you're here and beside me
How silly of me,
I know all the pain will go away so I say it,
here I am again

I gotta face another day I'm so tired,
I need u once again oh baby
How am I suppose to carry on,
I find myself singing the same old song
If you hear me,
have it in ur heart but please come back to me (oh baby)

I'll be right here if you need someone
If you hold another I'll be moving on
As easy as said
Just hope that I can see the road

Oh how it's been so long
It seems a lifetime passed
These memories that linger,
soon as I think they have gone they only gotten stronger
And so I'm getting through a day
but every move was made was always you and I together
It's hard to believe im lonely

Is there gonna be a day
I can see the word to make me better
I know there has to be a way

when you hear seven turn it up
you're one in a million,
dunno how we got so wrong
I thought it was so simple

then now I know, how it goes to let it go
Can there be a chance for you and I?
Before I really make up my mind
oh how I miss you
I never would kiss you
I'm speaking it from my heart

2009-03-02T18:22:00.003+08:00

speechless.... how long more could ii hold on....?
my worries & tears are like worthless....?

I can't believe you would be the one
who build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.

What you said before you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, way in too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

neverminds... certain things are to be kept within , isn't it?

thx all who cheered me up (:
thankz to :

Alphabetical Order

Alwin...
Thanks aiai for wiping my tears away ._. well... sorry tht ii always cry X;ue dun too sad too le...
it's her loss to give ue up... kudoz (: whatii asked ue... forget it ba (:

Casper....
Thanks ferr being there for me luh :D and oso for ur never give up attitude to cheer me up ._.
well... don't know how to answer ur qns though....

Ling...
NUER !!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :3 wahahahahs.... here's ur post :D i'll never hurt ue toos :DDD im gonna be the best lover :o cheeroz :DD

Ori...
babble queenie aka monkey lover :D thanks alot for standing by me all the time :D it's definately the greatest gift to know ue, pokey & jaja :D cheeros to ue 3 toos :DDD -POKE-

2009-02-26T11:30:00.005+08:00

You're the ghost of royalty imposing love,
You are the queen and king combining everything,
Into twining like a ring around the finger of a girl.
I'm just a singer, you're the world,
All I can bring ya,Is the language of a lover.

2009-02-15T16:20:00.001+08:00

it's gonna be a v long post ba.. but who would read...? :D
that day we're talking abt the bobo thing, ue know how happy i was ma..
but it's like once in a blue moon...

Every single time....
i really don't know what's going through my mind...

it's really frustrating....
though when i'm out with my friends..
i can be a lil distracted but then... i can't deny the fact that my whole mind is going crazy over ue..
a sec frm ue meant tears...
but...just a simple msg frm ue..
im like a fool smiling... mad eh?
yea... madly in love with ue... dumb...
but when im alone, i cant take it anymore...
i just wna cry....
but i cant... hais...
how i wish ue would be by my side like how ue did last time...
pei wo du guo these obstacles... but it's impossible ba?
i'm crying now, u know ma...
i really need ue, u know ma....
im jealous, ue know ma...
u're hanging out w/ ppl i dislike, ue know ma...
im afraid of losing ue, ue know ma....
im dying deep within, but what can i do.,...7 more days....

isn't sweet at all...
bibi, ue know why ma....
it's really bitter.... really sour.... really hurtful too
im not satisfied with my dam toot life now... getting sick...that's enough.....
without u by my side... that's worst? i hate the feeling of eating vinegar...

that day, my friend ask me how am i getting on with my boy... i hesistated veri long before saying a yes...
that's not the me... they gave me a love survey... guess what's the result...
what ue thot was urs... wasn't urs... holding tightly to it wont bring ue happiness...
at tht v moment, i just break down in tears... idk wht to say or do...

i had told no one abt this but yea...
for the past few days...been crying myself to sleep...in my cold....dark corner....
the same old nightmare just wont stop haunting me... i really hope it won't turn into reality...
im scared, really scared.... but what can i do....? tell ue... & ue'll say sry aqn....
which is the very last word i wna hear from ue?...
maybe ue didnt realise ba...
ur "sorry" is being repeated more than "iloveyou"...
what does this mean....?

though i wna turn back time,
i know the past can never be returned but remembered...
im feeling more & more like an abandoned junk again....
can we really make it through together....?
don't bother to care for my feelings ba or cheer me up ba...
afterall, friends are more important & the best... one day, u'll know that...
or ue alr knew tht...? ue're complaining ur friends are less...
either im too sensitive or u're too oblivious ba... idk...
unlike me... even have friends also can't help...
afterall im just a loner... a stranger....
yst i just feel so dejected, & dui ni fa pi qi...pls 4give me....
idk y... i jsut got this strong sense tht im gonna lose ue soon...
ue said can we dun quarrel....

ue know how lost i felt... when ue said tht... coming to think of it...
we're almost quarreling evday in the past... but at least... it's better than now...
though i hate quarreling..but.. now i miss it...
though we quarreled.. but we got closer didnt we...
but now....? we don't even have a chance to talk....
feels like being thrown into antartica to freeze for a million years...

yesterday was being asked...

"if given a choice again, would ue love him or urself or choose some other guys?"
guess what's my reply? if i can have a choice... i'll still choose to know ue & love ue...
but... please rip off my heart...& keep it in the safety box... so that this love'll really nbr end...

Babyboy bibi :

ur bebe may be sha hu hu de...
hurtful toos.... maybe emo ?
but all she knows is she loves ue...
but she's getting more & more jealous...
even she herself don't know why...
please forgive her hao ma...
though u're not by her side, but her love for ue will foreva stand by....
past, present & future... it'll foreva' stay...
but she really wnat ur security....
but she don't know how...
she wna be loved by ue one again...
can we be close once again & stay loving ma...?
i really wna create lovediary with you & only you....
can i be part of ur family....?

forget it ba... im crapping again.... & there goes crybaby toos [:

crybaby gainign sympathy?hahas....
im jealous... really jealous...but what can i do....?
im not as barbaric as my friends where... they demand their bfs to
cever all ties w/ female friends... idw ue to be sad aqn...like last time...
like ii said too... ue dont solely belong to me toos... i wont expect ue to do tht toos..
jealousy kills but what can i do....? i hate it to the core....
forget it ba

though im alr going to be 17 & also known for being the over-matured 17...
but when it comes to love affairs..im a total noob... a baby....
so why do ue still wna bother to make me smile....?
im not a good girlfriend neither a good wife...
im not a good girlfriend neither a good wife...
im not a good girlfriend neither a good wife...

no mood to type anymore le luh................................................
i cryy anot, also dont care luh.... pathetic, bitchy creature...
just cause of my baby mind....
hate me to the core ba...

- shasha still loves guagua
-bebe still loves bibi
- xigua still loves donggua
- dear still loves dear
- laopo still loves laogong
- levon still loves leon

2009-02-15T14:59:00.003+08:00

forget it forget it forget.....
why am i just so jealous.... what the )@&()&@()&)($@* is this..... DA BIAN luh....
i just totally hate the fact ue're still with her or anyone related with her... but what can i do....
really (@^$^@$^@$&^(@&()&@$&@$&@$&@&$).......
i totally hate this part right now.......
bibi... u don't have to be sorry... well.... u know when can that word be used... but yet ue.....
im really speechless.... hate me would ue....? i beg ue.... i dont wanna remember anything anymore... im so tired.... why can't i be secure at all with ue? what the (@&$&@()&)@)@*)@$*)*@

i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself
i hate myself

2009-02-14T09:43:00.000+08:00

Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away Live believing Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by For you and I

Souls in the wind Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by For you and I

"Can We Still Accomplish This Together?"

2009-02-14T09:10:00.000+08:00

Aren't it suppose to be valentines a joyous occasion?
But.... Why Is Mine Filled W/ Tears..... Confusion.... Helplessness.....
Im really...beginning to understand him lesser & lesser w/ each passing days...
But why is that so..... Are we gonna walk the paths of strangers soon....?
What Is This *&%!^!#(!&@( feeling... arghhhhhhh......
i hate this part right now...
i hate this part right now
i hate this part right now
i don't know why... i just feel so insecured when he's with anyone related to ahem*
no offence luh but.. cause... it makes me feels that... i was only a friend to him.. yea.. just a normal friend.that's the worst feeling ue can ever get in a relationship...
imagine urself in a relationship... if ue ever finds out that... people need ur partner more than ue do.. how would ue feel? people know ur partner better than ue do.. how would ue feel? everyone knows everything except ue.. how would ue feel? terrible deep within eh?

i've been trying to avoid this issues.. but then.. how long can i do that...? it really hurts damn hard deep inside of me... ii feel like... im like his... but he's not mine? freakish aite? ii really dont hope for him to have any relations with any1 related to her... but 2nd thought.. who am i to tell him to do that? make him sad again? in the end, i'll end up as the baddie again? ii rather im the one suffering ba.. since im already used to it.. the outside of me is just a masquerade now ba.. deep within, it's already demolished till dont know what le..

perhaps... i've lost confidence in myself rather than him ba.. arghhhhhhh.....
now i finally get it... love makes ue smile but yet make ue tear..
should ii just carry on pretending.... or should i do something...
really hate this feeling manz... sometimes how i wish im back to my old self..
but then.. got tied down i guess?
he's been asking how much i need him.. but has he halt to ponder the fact how much he needs me? lovers or simply friends... i dont know toos..
yesterday, my friends were still asking me about us... envious of us... but now...? what has become of us... loners to lover & back to lovers to loners... funny aite? Trust & honesty & security are the vital parts of a relationship.. but we failed them... didn't we...? ii really wonder... how do we walk down this rocky path together.. or rather drag down ba...
One is moving ; another is stopping...
One is smiling ; another is tearing ..
Is he ever mine......... that's the question...

there goes my festive mood today.. haish... gotta go .... hope that someone will be able to cheer me up ba... sorry beebee that im like that.. i cant do anything about it..

曾经明亮的道路，

瞬间被黑暗蒙住
微弱的小星
再次掉入
无边的山谷。。

幸福的小星
再次感到冷酷
瞎了眼睛
找不到路。。

孤独伴随冷漠
播放掉落的旋律。。
闪亮的未来
不知去向。。
小星跟随微风
渐渐的飘去~~

2009-02-05T10:58:00.000+08:00

Hahahas... here to blog.. lols.. hmms.. well yesterday went kboxing :O too bad pokie neber go )):
Ori & Jaja Have Such WONDERful voice x: Had Loads & loads of fun.. too bad pokie wasn't here to see... [ You Missed Out All Da Fun ! xD]

2009-01-29T10:16:00.000+08:00

Update On Yesterday's Other Happenings Ba..

------------- 2 Days Ago-------------------

Ang Bao Ang Bao!!!! xD It's More Than Working For A Day Lor

1k +++ $$$ leh.. hahas.. Was Elated Cause Managed To Countdown For CNY W/ Babyboy ♥/.

Nnq Called & We Talk Craps Luh..LOLOLOLOL! Don't Ton Le Luh.. Later Ue Faint Then You Know..

Shuyi Is Cute Luh ! X;

You Owe Me My Uglyduckling Sleep Too Luh X;

Also Thanks To Emily Nuer For Pei-ing Ma ! :D Kudoz To You!

------- The Day Before Yesterday ---------

Nnq, I Miss Shuyi Luh X; hahas... Nnq Is Always There De Lorhs...

hahas... hms.. 1st Day Of CNY mega chiong luh

but i prefer going to my mama side; at least there's a sense of belonging there..

Out Of The Blue, Glg F> Me O.O...

He's One Siao Kia Luh...Keep Drinking... TOOT!

Babyboy Tell Me That He Fell Down .. *heartbroken luh* stupid bro of his... ROFLS!X;

------------- Yesterday -------------------

I Have Been Having A Bad Tummy Ache Ever Since 1st Day Of CNY...

Feel So Queasy... Frustrated... But I Thought It Was Normal..

So Don't Care :D Till Yesterday x.x ~ Cannot Take It Le...

Went To The Hospital ~.~''' Didn't Want Babyboy To Worry So Didnt Tell Him...

My Parents Are Like TOOOOOOT-ing... Keep Nagging Like Machines.. Not Tired Ma..

What's Wrong W/ Being Sick... Gimme A Breather...

Seriously, Hate That Part Luh... hahas.. Unlike Me Right?

----------------- Hospital -----------------

3 Jabs A Days.. Can Kill If The 'Angels' Aren't Angels...

The 2nd Jab Was A WONDERful POWER-packed One...

The 'Angel' Keep Poking My Tummy Till Bleed D: What A Nice CNY'o9..hahas..

But Then What Hurts The Most Is Within Ba...*looks down*

Tio Cursed By NNQ oooooooo...LOLOLOL! ROFLS!

Glg... Adjust Your Alarm Clock Luh...

Thx Wenjiea Nuer Toos :D

Was A Happy Yet Sad Day Ba....

2009-01-29T08:57:00.000+08:00

Haiz... I Don't Know What The $%&%^&*^*&^* Is Wrong With Me.. Slowly, I'm Turning Oversensitive & Insecure.. Knock My Head, Will You?

Brainwash Me Too Ba... Guess What Went Through My Mind? I Was Recalling Our Conversation Last Year...

Babygirl : Should I Leave For Australia Or Stay Here W/ Ue?
Babyboy : If You Go To Australia.... How Am I Supposed To Contact You...
* Babygirl Decided To Stay *
Babygirl & Babyboy Enjoying Each Other's Company Much..

------- Months Past -------------
Babyboy : I Cant Find You As Much As I Do Le.. Take Cares..
Babygirl : Oh Ohkays...

I Really Don't Know... Is Your Amount Of Concerns For Me Decreasing Or My Desire For You Has Increased... Though I Understand Why Are Ue Reacting Lidat But... My Heart... Just... Tells Me : I Don't Wanna Be Alone... Solitary Moments Are Tearing Me Apart.. I Even Thought Of Saying The 2 Words That I Never Ever Wanna Say... What's Wrong W/ Me....好痛苦啊 ~

As Usual ... We'll Sms... That's The Only Way For Us Too Ba...
BabyGirl : What If... 221o ; 2512 Don't Exist.... What If I'm Not Who You Think I'm...
What If I... Leave...

* Tears Flow Like Never Ending River*

BabyBoy : What Do You Mean? U Said You Wont Ever Do That...

BabyGirl : It's Only A What If...

* Just Nice BabyGirl's Handphone Was Playing A Song Which Is Describing Her Feelings Now : S.H.E. - 他还是不懂*

BabyBoy : All I Can Say Is Idw You To Leave..Even If Time Can Rewind, I Still Want 221o ;
2512 To Exist..Maybe Im Not Good Enough Ba..

* BabyGirl's Heart Really Aches... She Doesn't Want To Hurt BabyBoy.. But She...** Maybe She Is The One Whose Not Good Enough Ba...*

BabyBoy : There're People Out There That Likes You.U Have The Qualities.U Have The Right
To Choose.我没资格..

* BabyGirl's Feelings Are Mixed Up Now*

------Minutes Later ---------

BabyGirl : Let's Be Just Friends For 3 Days...

BabyBoy : 知道了.. But Idk What A Friend Should Do..3 Days... Think Thru What U Really Want.

* BabyGirl's Lost... She Really Don't Know How Is She Gonna Make Thru These 3 Days.. Maybe She Can Ba... *

Babyboy Is Soooooo Good Yet... BabyGirl's Here... 3 Days Ba...

我真的很爱你；
但我不值得你的爱;
Babyboy我爱你；
我不想放开你；
但如果我得放手；
我想你也应该知道为什么；
我们的爱是不会被遗忘的；
我答应你不会被代替的

2009-01-28T13:53:00.000+08:00

was looking for nice songs in youtube till i came across this....

The Omega Kawaii Cloud Song [ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PrZQIayUnbA ]

Was laughing through... uncertain why X;

2009-01-25T15:27:00.000+08:00

hahas... already blogged in our bloggie ;D but still wanna say...

老公! Belated 1 Year' 1 Month DOC ♥

please refer to our bloggie to know what am i blabbering about xD

hmms... okays now is personal time :DD
have been quite tiring for the past week ba..
busy cleaning up the house x.x~

hms.. quite alot happened ba... ask me personally to know ba :D
nnq's shuyi niece is so kawaii desu :3 hahas...
how nice it would be to be a mama xD
ok..that's all...tatas ~
off to cook my curry ~~~~~~ reunion dinner :3

You're My Fire ; My One Desire
That I Wanna Keep It Burning Till No Ending ♥

2009-01-23T19:16:00.001+08:00

whee!~ new bloggie LOL *Under construction*