Aren't it suppose to be valentines a joyous occasion?
But.... Why Is Mine Filled W/ Tears..... Confusion.... Helplessness.....
Im really...beginning to understand him lesser & lesser w/ each passing days...
But why is that so..... Are we gonna walk the paths of strangers soon....?
What Is This *&%!^!#(!&@( feeling... arghhhhhhh......
i hate this part right now...
i hate this part right nowi hate this part right nowi don't know why... i just feel so insecured when he's with anyone related to ahem*
no offence luh but.. cause... it makes me feels that... i was only a friend to him.. yea.. just a normal friend.that's the worst feeling ue can ever get in a relationship...
imagine urself in a relationship... if ue ever finds out that... people need ur partner more than ue do.. how would ue feel? people know ur partner better than ue do.. how would ue feel? everyone knows everything except ue.. how would ue feel? terrible deep within eh?
i've been trying to avoid this issues.. but then.. how long can i do that...? it really hurts damn hard deep inside of me... ii feel like... im like his... but he's not mine? freakish aite? ii really dont hope for him to have any relations with any1 related to her... but 2nd thought.. who am i to tell him to do that? make him sad again? in the end, i'll end up as the baddie again? ii rather im the one suffering ba.. since im already used to it.. the outside of me is just a masquerade now ba.. deep within, it's already demolished till dont know what le..
perhaps... i've lost confidence in myself rather than him ba.. arghhhhhhh.....
now i finally get it... love makes ue smile but yet make ue tear..
should ii just carry on pretending.... or should i do something...
really hate this feeling manz... sometimes how i wish im back to my old self..
but then.. got tied down i guess?
he's been asking how much i need him.. but has he halt to ponder the fact how much he needs me? lovers or simply friends... i dont know toos..
yesterday, my friends were still asking me about us... envious of us... but now...? what has become of us... loners to lover & back to lovers to loners... funny aite? Trust & honesty & security are the vital parts of a relationship.. but we failed them... didn't we...? ii really wonder... how do we walk down this rocky path together.. or rather drag down ba...
One is moving ; another is stopping...
One is smiling ; another is tearing ..
Is he ever mine......... that's the question...
there goes my festive mood today.. haish... gotta go .... hope that someone will be able to cheer me up ba... sorry beebee that im like that.. i cant do anything about it..
曾经明亮的道路,
瞬间被黑暗蒙住
微弱的小星
再次掉入
无边的山谷。。
幸福的小星
再次感到冷酷
瞎了眼睛
找不到路。。
孤独伴随冷漠
播放掉落的旋律。。
闪亮的未来
不知去向。。
小星跟随微风
渐渐的飘去~~
she wrote @
9:10 AM