
Thursday, February 26, 2009

You're the ghost of royalty imposing love,
You are the queen and king combining everything,
Into twining like a ring around the finger of a girl.
I'm just a singer, you're the world,
All I can bring ya,Is the language of a lover.
she wrote @
11:30 AM

Sunday, February 15, 2009
it's gonna be a v long post ba.. but who would read...? :D
that day we're talking abt the bobo thing, ue know how happy i was ma..
but it's like once in a blue moon...
Every single time....
i really don't know what's going through my mind...
it's really frustrating....
though when i'm out with my friends..
i can be a lil distracted but then... i can't deny the fact that my whole mind is going crazy over ue..
a sec frm ue meant tears...
but...just a simple msg frm ue..
im like a fool smiling... mad eh?
yea... madly in love with ue... dumb...
but when im alone, i cant take it anymore...
i just wna cry....
but i cant... hais...
how i wish ue would be by my side like how ue did last time...
pei wo du guo these obstacles... but it's impossible ba?
i'm crying now, u know ma...
i really need ue, u know ma....
im jealous, ue know ma...
u're hanging out w/ ppl i dislike, ue know ma...
im afraid of losing ue, ue know ma....
im dying deep within, but what can i do.,...7 more days....
isn't sweet at all...
bibi, ue know why ma....
it's really bitter.... really sour.... really hurtful too
im not satisfied with my dam toot life now... getting sick...that's enough.....
without u by my side... that's worst? i hate the feeling of eating vinegar...
that day, my friend ask me how am i getting on with my boy... i hesistated veri long before saying a yes...
that's not the me... they gave me a love survey... guess what's the result...
what ue thot was urs... wasn't urs... holding tightly to it wont bring ue happiness...
at tht v moment, i just break down in tears... idk wht to say or do...
i had told no one abt this but yea...
for the past few days...been crying myself to sleep...in my cold....dark corner....
the same old nightmare just wont stop haunting me... i really hope it won't turn into reality...
im scared, really scared.... but what can i do....? tell ue... & ue'll say sry aqn....
which is the very last word i wna hear from ue?...
maybe ue didnt realise ba...
ur "sorry" is being repeated more than "iloveyou"...
what does this mean....?
though i wna turn back time,
i know the past can never be returned but remembered...
im feeling more & more like an abandoned junk again....
can we really make it through together....?
don't bother to care for my feelings ba or cheer me up ba...
afterall, friends are more important & the best... one day, u'll know that...
or ue alr knew tht...? ue're complaining ur friends are less...
either im too sensitive or u're too oblivious ba... idk...
unlike me... even have friends also can't help...
afterall im just a loner... a stranger....
yst i just feel so dejected, & dui ni fa pi qi...pls 4give me....
idk y... i jsut got this strong sense tht im gonna lose ue soon...
ue said can we dun quarrel....
ue know how lost i felt... when ue said tht... coming to think of it...
we're almost quarreling evday in the past... but at least... it's better than now...
though i hate quarreling..but.. now i miss it...
though we quarreled.. but we got closer didnt we...
but now....? we don't even have a chance to talk....
feels like being thrown into antartica to freeze for a million years...
yesterday was being asked...
"if given a choice again, would ue love him or urself or choose some other guys?"
guess what's my reply? if i can have a choice... i'll still choose to know ue & love ue...
but... please rip off my heart...& keep it in the safety box... so that this love'll really nbr end...
Babyboy bibi :
ur bebe may be sha hu hu de...
hurtful toos.... maybe emo ?
but all she knows is she loves ue...
but she's getting more & more jealous...
even she herself don't know why...
please forgive her hao ma...
though u're not by her side, but her love for ue will foreva stand by....
past, present & future... it'll foreva' stay...
but she really wnat ur security....
but she don't know how...
she wna be loved by ue one again...
can we be close once again & stay loving ma...?
i really wna create lovediary with you & only you....
can i be part of ur family....?
forget it ba... im crapping again.... & there goes crybaby toos [:
crybaby gainign sympathy?hahas....
im jealous... really jealous...but what can i do....?
im not as barbaric as my friends where... they demand their bfs to
cever all ties w/ female friends... idw ue to be sad aqn...like last time...
like ii said too... ue dont solely belong to me toos... i wont expect ue to do tht toos..
jealousy kills but what can i do....? i hate it to the core....
forget it ba
though im alr going to be 17 & also known for being the over-matured 17...
but when it comes to love affairs..im a total noob... a baby....
so why do ue still wna bother to make me smile....?
im not a good girlfriend neither a good wife...
im not a good girlfriend neither a good wife...
im not a good girlfriend neither a good wife...
no mood to type anymore le luh................................................
i cryy anot, also dont care luh.... pathetic, bitchy creature...
just cause of my baby mind....
hate me to the core ba...
- shasha still loves guagua
-bebe still loves bibi
- xigua still loves donggua
- dear still loves dear
- laopo still loves laogong
- levon still loves leon
she wrote @
4:20 PM
forget it forget it forget.....
why am i just so jealous.... what the )@&()&@()&)($@* is this..... DA BIAN luh....
i just totally hate the fact ue're still with her or anyone related with her... but what can i do....
really (@^$^@$^@$&^(@&()&@$&@$&@$&@&$).......
i totally hate this part right now.......
bibi... u don't have to be sorry... well.... u know when can that word be used... but yet ue.....
im really speechless.... hate me would ue....? i beg ue.... i dont wanna remember anything anymore... im so tired.... why can't i be secure at all with ue? what the (@&$&@()&)@)@*)@$*)*@
i hate myselfi hate myselfi hate myself
i hate myselfi hate myself
she wrote @
2:59 PM

Saturday, February 14, 2009
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away Live believing Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by For you and I
Souls in the wind Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying Someone is praying
Please let us come home to stay
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by For you and I
When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone
If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by For you and I
"Can We Still Accomplish This Together?"
she wrote @
9:43 AM
Aren't it suppose to be valentines a joyous occasion?
But.... Why Is Mine Filled W/ Tears..... Confusion.... Helplessness.....
Im really...beginning to understand him lesser & lesser w/ each passing days...
But why is that so..... Are we gonna walk the paths of strangers soon....?
What Is This *&%!^!#(!&@( feeling... arghhhhhhh......
i hate this part right now...
i hate this part right nowi hate this part right nowi don't know why... i just feel so insecured when he's with anyone related to ahem*
no offence luh but.. cause... it makes me feels that... i was only a friend to him.. yea.. just a normal friend.that's the worst feeling ue can ever get in a relationship...
imagine urself in a relationship... if ue ever finds out that... people need ur partner more than ue do.. how would ue feel? people know ur partner better than ue do.. how would ue feel? everyone knows everything except ue.. how would ue feel? terrible deep within eh?
i've been trying to avoid this issues.. but then.. how long can i do that...? it really hurts damn hard deep inside of me... ii feel like... im like his... but he's not mine? freakish aite? ii really dont hope for him to have any relations with any1 related to her... but 2nd thought.. who am i to tell him to do that? make him sad again? in the end, i'll end up as the baddie again? ii rather im the one suffering ba.. since im already used to it.. the outside of me is just a masquerade now ba.. deep within, it's already demolished till dont know what le..
perhaps... i've lost confidence in myself rather than him ba.. arghhhhhhh.....
now i finally get it... love makes ue smile but yet make ue tear..
should ii just carry on pretending.... or should i do something...
really hate this feeling manz... sometimes how i wish im back to my old self..
but then.. got tied down i guess?
he's been asking how much i need him.. but has he halt to ponder the fact how much he needs me? lovers or simply friends... i dont know toos..
yesterday, my friends were still asking me about us... envious of us... but now...? what has become of us... loners to lover & back to lovers to loners... funny aite? Trust & honesty & security are the vital parts of a relationship.. but we failed them... didn't we...? ii really wonder... how do we walk down this rocky path together.. or rather drag down ba...
One is moving ; another is stopping...
One is smiling ; another is tearing ..
Is he ever mine......... that's the question...
there goes my festive mood today.. haish... gotta go .... hope that someone will be able to cheer me up ba... sorry beebee that im like that.. i cant do anything about it..
曾经明亮的道路,
瞬间被黑暗蒙住
微弱的小星
再次掉入
无边的山谷。。
幸福的小星
再次感到冷酷
瞎了眼睛
找不到路。。
孤独伴随冷漠
播放掉落的旋律。。
闪亮的未来
不知去向。。
小星跟随微风
渐渐的飘去~~
she wrote @
9:10 AM

Thursday, February 5, 2009
Hahahas... here to blog.. lols.. hmms.. well yesterday went kboxing :O too bad pokie neber go )):
Ori & Jaja Have Such WONDERful voice x: Had Loads & loads of fun.. too bad pokie wasn't here to see... [ You Missed Out All Da Fun ! xD]
she wrote @
10:58 AM